Story of My Life

Absence- When you try your best but you don’t succeed

Absence. It’s over now. It’s gone, no longer here. I am content with being alone but I don’t want to be lonely. I thought to myself about this today and I realized that it scared me, the thought of being without someone. I’ve been so confused lately. Everyone seems to be happy and devoted to someone else and then there is me. Just me, all of the time. I miss the excitement of seeing someone you love. I miss the butterflies I would get when you’d call me beautiful. I miss you’re smile. Your laugh still echoes in my head. I still think about how you held me in your arms and how you’d whisper “I love you” in my ear. What I miss most is being able to kiss you and call you mine. I don’t know where all of these feelings are coming from and I don’t know if they have any meaning but what I do know is that, I miss having you in my life. I haven’t seen your face in months, you’re slowly fading away and so is the memory I have of you. It still hurts me more than you can imagine. Everyone sees that I’m okay but truthfully I’m still torn. I’m alone, desolate, missing something, scared, hurt and somehow I’m okay and still wear a smile on my face. 

Posted 7 months ago